Your personal testimonies are always so powerful to read Stephen. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing them. I'm encouraged to continue writing, and share what is penned; even when it's extremely raw. Praise be to Jesus.
I like that I got to read about your cycle story. I have been living a cycle that improves in level of bottom/ or surrender then I allow the flesh Lauren to win yet again and we start again...and round and round we go. This has had a very huge part of my life since very early childhood. I have probablydeveloped more ability to turn the other cheek and almost crave adversity because w/o struggle I don't seek out Christ with the same despairation. The last four years have been very different,in some ways...I have felt the Holy Spirit nudging me into seeing other people, situations that I used to judge harshly in a new 180 degree changed perseption. I have felt this desire to also do things head on. I used to be an expert at wiggling out of uncomfortable situations. I can feel this intense desire to do things the right God Right way. All the Way. I still fail almost every day in some way, but that urge won't go away.I am excited because the world is having its slate cleaned and so is Lauren.Personal Responsability is imperative to true Liberty.Its probably going to be a thorn in my side for the rest of my life, but I have all the faith possible that God is with me in this battle.I have gotten much encouragement from your story, because it tells me that others fail over and over w/o God giving up listening to them.You have also been able to make progress.Some seem to grow so fast.I take hope in your journey that has been longer.Be blessed and keep Chin up toward our New Father.
** I guess I reject myself the most in frequency, and level of contempt and frustration. **
Thank you for sharing your story, Davis. Your words ring in the ears of Truth. We need, too, to cultivate the habit of prompt obedience to the indwelling Life of Jesus. Slow obedience is often the germ of incipient disobedience... It's easiest to do our duty when we are first sure of it. It then comes with an impelling power that carries us over obstacles on the crest of a wave, while hesitation and delay leave us stranded in shallow feelings of the waters of rejection. If we would follow the inspiration of the Spirit from within, we must respond at once. Davis - you've got this.
Thank You. I know I am getting closer. I think its a combination of realizing that I have been sheltered from the reality of the depth, and unfathomable evil is. I am so frightened and dumbfounded by a Truth that we have lived alongside. It makes me desperate to know God. I have to know Him to fight the carnel , in order to bring to full life the spiritual me. I am excited. Just know I am truly blessed that I know Jesus, and will always have that baseline of God's Truth.You are very appreciated.Keep Chin up, even on bad days we know it does pass.
sorry, I forgot...I agree on the hesitation being something that plays a big role in not obeying. It always goes better if as soon as I feel what the spirit is nudging me to do...just do it. If I start rationalizing the old rut thinking comes back and I have to fight it harder. It's good to know others have these same battles going in their head/spirit.I won't give up.I am not even close to being ready to go down to the enemy. I think Christian love as a weapon against enemy is VERY underestimated.Satan can't move it.Jesus has always been intimidating in the gospels to me.The way He could calmly make bullies speechless.
What is your worst rejection experience?
Your personal testimonies are always so powerful to read Stephen. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing them. I'm encouraged to continue writing, and share what is penned; even when it's extremely raw. Praise be to Jesus.
Raw is real. I will, Emmalene. You are always so encouraging. It is an honor to have you as a reader & friend.
Thank you so much Stephen. God bless you!
I like that I got to read about your cycle story. I have been living a cycle that improves in level of bottom/ or surrender then I allow the flesh Lauren to win yet again and we start again...and round and round we go. This has had a very huge part of my life since very early childhood. I have probablydeveloped more ability to turn the other cheek and almost crave adversity because w/o struggle I don't seek out Christ with the same despairation. The last four years have been very different,in some ways...I have felt the Holy Spirit nudging me into seeing other people, situations that I used to judge harshly in a new 180 degree changed perseption. I have felt this desire to also do things head on. I used to be an expert at wiggling out of uncomfortable situations. I can feel this intense desire to do things the right God Right way. All the Way. I still fail almost every day in some way, but that urge won't go away.I am excited because the world is having its slate cleaned and so is Lauren.Personal Responsability is imperative to true Liberty.Its probably going to be a thorn in my side for the rest of my life, but I have all the faith possible that God is with me in this battle.I have gotten much encouragement from your story, because it tells me that others fail over and over w/o God giving up listening to them.You have also been able to make progress.Some seem to grow so fast.I take hope in your journey that has been longer.Be blessed and keep Chin up toward our New Father.
** I guess I reject myself the most in frequency, and level of contempt and frustration. **
Thank you for sharing your story, Davis. Your words ring in the ears of Truth. We need, too, to cultivate the habit of prompt obedience to the indwelling Life of Jesus. Slow obedience is often the germ of incipient disobedience... It's easiest to do our duty when we are first sure of it. It then comes with an impelling power that carries us over obstacles on the crest of a wave, while hesitation and delay leave us stranded in shallow feelings of the waters of rejection. If we would follow the inspiration of the Spirit from within, we must respond at once. Davis - you've got this.
Thank You. I know I am getting closer. I think its a combination of realizing that I have been sheltered from the reality of the depth, and unfathomable evil is. I am so frightened and dumbfounded by a Truth that we have lived alongside. It makes me desperate to know God. I have to know Him to fight the carnel , in order to bring to full life the spiritual me. I am excited. Just know I am truly blessed that I know Jesus, and will always have that baseline of God's Truth.You are very appreciated.Keep Chin up, even on bad days we know it does pass.
sorry, I forgot...I agree on the hesitation being something that plays a big role in not obeying. It always goes better if as soon as I feel what the spirit is nudging me to do...just do it. If I start rationalizing the old rut thinking comes back and I have to fight it harder. It's good to know others have these same battles going in their head/spirit.I won't give up.I am not even close to being ready to go down to the enemy. I think Christian love as a weapon against enemy is VERY underestimated.Satan can't move it.Jesus has always been intimidating in the gospels to me.The way He could calmly make bullies speechless.
Well stated, Davis.